Come on for the ride, baby take a ride, I just wanna ride with you.

Baby you & I, can have a good time. Tell me what you like Ohh, Ohhh. :] I still like that song x]
I'm looking for somebody I can call boo. Looking for the only one I can give my all to.
Mmm. So I've just been chillin'. Yesterday chilled w. faces from the southside, (Earl&Jeff + Cherelle.) I haven't seen in a minute. Lol I was falling asleep on the couch though ;] [ Someone has to be all boring ] j.k. I made hot chocolate, I was looking all around Jeff's house like it was mine, but yeah I'll tend to do that, to anyone's house shoot. If I want something, I go get what I want.

Supposedly, they're scooping up me & Cherelle again, I'm like yes ! I don't wanna drive, at all. I'm so tired, til' now, I took a shot of Henn, well a couple of shots, it was super freezing, you don't even know. & then I woke up at 6, went to bed at 4, that is not even right Lol.

It's weird, no one texts me in the morning anymore, I definitely perfer texts :D So anywho, in a couple of hours it'll be 2008 ! You don't even know how horriable I had it in the beginning of this year. But this year, by all means.. I know it'll be different. I'm already working on my New Year's Resolution, I kind of sorta, added more to it. I'm officially on a diet again, damn emo nights eating Robertos & cookies, after whatshisface I was like whateva, I think that's the reason why I slept so late back in November, I was still distrought.


Open my heart give it to you, tell the whole world, I'm in love with you, whatever you want, baby I'll do, I know I don't want no one else but you. Baby I promise I will never lie to you :]

Freaking a' I love that song. :]

I don't know what I'll be doing later, everyone's asking me, well sorry loves I got nothing planned.

I'll tell you one thing is for sure. My love/relationships/talking/ infatuation / liking a significant. That was one big eye opener, one right after the other. I learned a lot. I've dated / talked to a lot of people. Eh I'm not really proud, they didn't develop into anything, they were just a lesson learned. As long as I didn't have to change who I was, because if they didn't take the time to see who I was, where I came from, how I am, & still didn't love me in the morning, they weren't worth the time, right? At first feelings were hurt, but I understand now. I don't wanna be a one night stand, I want to make one impact, a significance. I want to be the chick you take home to your mama. Last year, I was all about hooking up, not taking feelings into consideration. This year, I wanted things to work out, but they didn't. & you know what I'm okay.

It's funny how you never think about the women you've had. It's always the ones who get away that you can't forget.

& the person who wrote that, he knows what he's talking about.

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart.

Complicated wreckless of a face underneath your bedsheets, type of a deal. My makeup has been heavy lately, but when I'm at home, I really don't give a shit, in fact I look like shit, I look gay without the makeup, but my close friends, they all see me without it, it ain't a bother. Mmmm I've been lazy besides that. My mind has been perplexed. You ever feel like a piece of the puzzle of your life is missing, I just can't pin-point it out. I usually shop it out, yes materialistic, am I. I'm much more than that, though. I can bargin hunt too, you know. Lol. Skills.

So Christmas was = $$$ in the bank. I never get a " surprise " gift ); It's the usual. The norm.


I just drove around today, w. Jo. We didn't really talk, we just listened to slow jams, & I drove, hella cops were out. Pops gave me money, he even gave Jo a XMAS gift, I was like aww she's part of the FAMBAM, that's wsup. haha jk.

I think I'll dust that chip off my shoulder, I like being chill mode :] No worries, like that damn snapping your fingers song, no not Lil Jon, that " Ohhhhhhhh don't worry, be happy*Jamaican Voice, man. " In my mind theres always gonna be doubts, The past effected me, but it doesn't get to me .... anymore. It's weird how weak I used to be.

On a different note but in a related sorta way, wow heard about the b2k-t.u.g., molestation/rape rumors. Yeah, that's bullshit, how a person can steep so low, just for sex, money, & drugs, like that's all we're really living for in life. Sike, I'm not trying to contradict myself, because seeing I've done bad things... but morally these days, I know what I'm working for towards life, I got a plan. Don't fret. New Year, son. Everything I've done, turning the other cheek. I swear.

I'm not content, I'm not gonna lie, but I am okay. So that's all folks.

shawty like a valet service, she's been thru a lot.

I love that scarf. Can't get enough. Yesterday was a mixture of random. :] Saw hella people at H&M,(people I partied with before), saw Cherelle's cousin, said Sup!. Then after all that good shit, Saw Gemmki, Jorel, Ralfie, Serena, Anthony, other people, at Jorel's & it was christal's birthday at 12am. Lots of drama (christal's boyfriend's ) , I was like fuck it, I'ma take a shot, I took shots( the drink Jon used to drink :[ ) with coffee mixture, my head started to hurt after that. & then when Christal dropped me off. I had to drop off hair dye to Jo-anna's w. my car, wowwwwww my car was being a pain in the ass. I swear.

Yes, I've been slacking again, >.> lol damn you cold. I had a good sleep. I like sleep, but sometimes I can't even lay a wink. The other day, I couldn't sleep so I had Jo-anna dye my hair. Lol. & we had our missions.

I have a New Years Resolution, I'm sticking to it this year, I promise. I don't need what you're tryna offer me, honey. That's what I realized... sigh.

My tummie hurts.. blah. Picking up my car.. my dad, me & Roxanne had conversation, don't settle for less, settle for love. Choose the one, that's willing to wait for you. That's so true, because fucking doesn't mean anything. It means something, when theres love behind it. No more hooking up. I've over the meaningless.. shacking up. Because when I was in LOVE, the sex was great, fucking is always good and all.. but. That lasts you about a min.

CH3RiSH this (1:39:42 PM): you gonna settle for less though?
mrSammieMao (1:40:02 PM): less how is that
mrSammieMao (1:40:11 PM): i got a shawty thats a ten
mrSammieMao (1:40:15 PM): in and out
mrSammieMao (1:40:21 PM): you just not lucky
CH3RiSH this (1:43:56 PM): LOL !!!!!
CH3RiSH this (1:44:00 PM): i love it.

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CH3RiSH this (1:49:23 PM): when i was dating someone..
CH3RiSH this (1:49:29 PM): a lil bit back
CH3RiSH this (1:49:31 PM): and you were single
CH3RiSH this (1:49:32 PM): doing you
mrSammieMao (1:49:38 PM): yup
mrSammieMao (1:50:05 PM): but i guess good guys get dont get fuck at the end
mrSammieMao (1:50:16 PM): cause there something better then the past
mrSammieMao (1:50:35 PM): faith is true and i believe it now

I guess I was never lucky... Lol. I'm happy for my friend though, he found something. He's been down & out for awhile now. Me on the other hand, I just needa stay focused on other things, trust me faith is my motivator.

I think you're just scared.

So I found out things... Like sometimes, I just avoid it, so I won't get a grip of it. I just want it to disappear, then out of no where, bamm. I don't even want to hear it. I know it shouldn't get to me, but to tell you the truth, ever since then I felt rejected. He was with me, then fell for her, he's still missing her, like I gave so much, & I always do. Black Friday, it didn't catch me off guard, because I already, intuition didn't fail me. You always want to believe you could change the zebras stripes, you always want to be " THAT GIRL ". Honestly I don't think I have enough in me, to be that. I don't cry over him because I'm not going to cry over a dude who is just not that into me, I cry over situations being. Like I was never good enough... I'm used to situations being. But overall this was the cherry off of my sundae, I'm definitely not going to rush, I'm going to wake up everyday & smell the coffee. You can only forgive, but never ever forget. Everyone tells me to be " G " hell, he to me to be G, he was like don't fall in love. Like that's the worst thing you could do in life.

I remember when my heart broke...

So that is love. Down Right.

Hello World ! Big Cold World. I haven't been slacking on that fitness ! Yes ! haha. Well it's only been a couple of days.

Still a flab monster though ;] Lol. I'm obsesed with leg theremals, they keep me warm at night. & I'm loving that whole NastyGalVintage line. Lol I loves it.

Blah, I still have no clue what's going down for New Years Eve. 2008 here we come. 2007 you whirlwind. I guess I broke my promise(s). You can't take that back, all you gotta do is

" love.live life. proceed. progress. " - Lil Wayne haha.

Fuck your shit. Okay? I'm doing mines. It's better that way. My eyes are more clearer than twenty tweny. I'm not saying it to intimidate, but I was naive. This time around, it's different, trust. I like blogging, I like to vent, what could I say. & what I can't. You're too much in my system, But I am immune or prone to the illness. I debated awhile... why I'm having day dreams. Let me tell you one thing is for sure, I was used to be being on that back burner, they say that hope could float. It's been done son, done for awhile.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't intimidated, but let's act like I'm not :] Slap me, & call me Charlie. New Years Resoloution, stick to doing you, my dear. Let me try & not make a mistake, this time I'll hold on to that ice box.

Don't act like you, know, cause honey you don't.

I realized, a lot are all talk, no walk for show. Well I like bubble baths, they keep me calm, so does green tea. I like... making silly faces. HA HA HA.
Hot chocolate, that gets to me, right there. Can I get a shot of soy !

I'm good at doing, me ;]

I'm suppose to be getting ready... " partying " or kick back, hanging out with the girls! I think I should be studying, I'm thinking of changing my major to radiology. College is stress & money.

Style Icons. Sarah Jessica Parker, Audrey Hepburn, & anyone who has a vintage infused with urban :] Lol I've been watching a lot of Project Runway =O haha. & Sex & The City, I remember I had a Mr. Big in my life, safe to say... poof. I have no worries, trust me.






So I lied, I barely worked out yesterday, wayyyyyy too cold for my own good. I just hung out with people(s). I need to update with certain people haha. Blah I think I'm picking up my whipp tomorrow at Mari's house, my dad's been nice lately, I think because I don't bother him (= For some reason, I'm still in love with Fergie-Pick It Up song. Mmmm nothings really bothering me I think. I've just been chill. But then again I keep hearing that damn A Fine Frenzy song stuck in my head :[ " He & I, had something beautiful, but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last. Loved him so, but I let him go because I knew he'd never love me back. " Whateva.

I want this for Christmas =x


Lomography Fisheye Camera - Purple ; it's not digital, but you develop it, it's cool :]
Urban Outfitters, I've been eyeing that since August.


I'm going to P.I. with Jo-anna next year for 5 days Lol. shuuuuuuuutup I need to get darker :) I have $$$ again, which I'm NOT saving haha I love my sister.