Fuck it, we're just friends.....

"... Now where's my clothes. You know what, you know what, you know what, I'm sorry, Sorry, sorry, sorry. it hurts me, it hurts you, it hurts me what you do was so good, so good. " - <3

Thank the lord, my hair is growing :] The layers are crazy now. Mmm. Did some damage w/ my money today, I think I went overlimit on my debit, but my sister was loving enough to give me some $$$. I bought my acid wash jeans, leather jacket, white v-neck tee, & accessories. :] Overall good day, despite the fact, I saw Jon Jon, & he ignored me because he was w. his ex, and afterwards started holding hands w. her. But in American Heritage he yelled-whispered, " Mel ! ", I in turn ignored it, walked away. Weird, when he was texting me, I miss yous. & whatever. I won't be returning any phone calls or texts, Now I have to find a new workout/run buddy :[ That sucks! It's all G'. Single Status, I am. & I'll settle, when there's a real Man, that can hold this hand :] haha. There will always be lovers & liars. I want the LEGIT, baby (= My birthday is in 2 weeks? Everyone says, " they'll make it the best day ever ", sike! I'll probably do something random, nothing planned. I don't want to meet anymore " BAY AREA ! - dudes " like last year's pool party. ROFLMAO.
" Ayyy shawty, where you from ? " - Marcus lol
" Um, I live in Vegas. " - Me.
" Nah, where you from ? " - Marcus
" Mmm Daygo "- Me
" Fuck that ! It's all about the Bay ! " - Marcus
" Wow..."- Me
" AHHHH, BAY AREA ! "- Random Bay Heads Screaming along w/ Marcus.

Yeah, that was my 18th last year. Fam Party, Hit up random parties, met some weirdos ;]
I want, more tattoos, leather jackets( perferably cropped motorcycle), shoes, scarves, rosaries-crosses, & sushi :D Who will provide? <3

'cause i like you...

maybe, because i'm just like you. holding something we know we can not hold. or fold it seems we can not forget.

I want to create a goals list ; Get 4 more tattoos, travel to California for the American Apparel Flea Market, shop more vintage - thrift, major in something I really want to achieve, get my bachelor's degree, go to Tokyo-Chicago-New York-London-Hawaii-Virgina Beach, do an actual photoshoot, Own a car I'm in love with, own a home on my own. After all is said and done pop a baby with these baby making hips.

Not that bad? Nee said she's willing to help me w/ my car issue. Thank-you. I've been okay, doing my thing, some faces have faded but it's okay. It's been a long time since I've had any affection, but the affection I did recieve didn't hit in the right note. Friends again w/ people I've fucked with an exception of kkkkkkkhhh. lol.Rather not say his name. Mmmh "he " left me hanging once again, but as usual it's whatever I never satisfied his tastes. All I know is I just want to make it, and moving forward...

Maybe I should forget about him. Like I do w/ the rest of the guys, that just wasn't it for me. I miss Tica, I'd probably vent to her all my silly love problems to her.

welcome back, welcome back, welcome back.

I haven't written in this in forever, I got fustrated over guys, & decided to up & leave. I've been drinking green tea all day, & it feels good. Last month, I lost my baby-love, tiffany "tica" ann delacruz. She passed away June 27, 2008.







I still can't believe she's gone. I feel like she'll always be here, in my heart. I've been focusing on me, me, me ! lol I'm being selfish. I'm trying to love myself before I could love anyone else. Me & the ex are on good terms. & every asshole who left me in my life, they're back, because " you're such a cool girl ". Summer has been chill, been flirting, working out, trying to get that paper :] lol.





I got bored the other day, so I had a mini-photoshoot in my sister's bathroom. Mmm Betsey Johnson, I'm sorry to say it's way better than the ordinary Coach.





And I cut my own bangs, Yes ! my hair got longer, I had a mullet for a second. Spur of the moment I wanted a mo-hawk last year. It got ugly for awhile, so I resorted to extensions for awhile.