lights black, heads bang, you're my drug, we live in it. you're drunk... you need it, real love i'll give it.

the first two, are from the April Issue of BlackBook Magazine. (=
Anyway got my brazilet finally, wish me luck [;
Just got done watching Godfather 1&2. Lesson learned... " keep your friends close, but keep your enemies, closer."
Jorel told me, it's one of the gangster movies, ( certain people ) like, because "it's so bad it's good" along with Goodfellas, which I liked too.

we in the bed like ohhh.. ohhh.. ohhh. memories in the car.

After much thought, thought to myself...

“Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.”

Lately I've been down & out, for some strange reason, but I will let the good times roll. It's springtime, I have my mind set, time to push the pedal to the metal. Me & Christal had a reminiscence conversation, I miss her mucho, I miss our good-times. I've known her since we were cool kids, kicking rocks in the playground. " Hey are you filipina?"
" Yeah.."
Weeks later... she & her sister show up at my doorstep, & her sister is my sister's bestfriend.
We played outside with the same people Keith, Chelsea, Annabell, Dante, & the rest is history.













Never judged, categorized me, simply melly-boo. Whewww especially on my birthday last year.
" You put yourself in difficult situations "
Remember that one time, nacho cheese breath, or how we met the gang, on my birthday night.
That time I had to force her to go to applebees w/ me, when that one dude liked me eek.
Our many escapades after she got off of White House Black Market, me sneaking out at 11 o'clock at night, going out every fri-sat-sunday was our ritual.
Movies, healthy food, sleepovers anywhere wasn't unusual. Makeup was a plus. Sharing clothes was a necessity, changing in the car. Oh I miss it all. P.S. how we didn't see each other for weeks, and then magically we had the same haircut or color, without telling each other.

I have so many memories w/ many people. But a few takes the cake of my top memories, fo'life. Thank You for accepting me as who I am. I got to experience my high school life with you. Gangsta-Gangsta ;]

horoscopes.

A friend's been getting a little bit too greedy for your time. Make some boundaries.

Overview

Meet new people and find new ways to interact with them today -- you can get quite playful if you desire! It's a really good time to start off in new directions that you don't need to commit to yet.

& i'm still waiting on that brazilet (; My sister Roxanne helped me a lot this weekend, so so grateful to have an older sister, sisters, another blog thanking my sisters'. Anywho, Lindo Michican, they have one in Northtown ! :D Fun times, used the fisheye camera finally. Shoe shopped, found this hot ass peep toe, steve maddens. They look so good with shorts<3

Met some guys, as usual. Random stores such as DSW, Smiths. Gymed it.

I miss some people(s). I realized that.

when you wish upon a star...

I am so fucking motivated, fuck the bullshit. For real, for real. (=
So today Nee came over & we watched, Sex & the City Season 3, & let me tell you, truth hurts, & people will cheat, honesty is a must in a relationship. It's true life.

Aunt Flow is back in action, & allergies are kicking in, but I'm not whining, just telling it like it is.

I'm dandy (: I'm going to watch all my wildest dreams come true, not one of them involving you ;D

what if i fall & hurt myself, would you know how to fix me?

why yes, I do miss him.

recap of my random weekend.
- purchased twilight, & disney films such as, pinnochio, the little mermaid <3
- lunch w/ roxy & her friend amber, aw we had a girl-talk / lunch @ sammys woodfire.
oh & extra cardio, just walking around townsquare beforehand. met, a cute d.j. boy (((=
- visited christine & jorel at 12 in the morning.
- saw yule again, she cracks me up. watched pineapple express.
- vented to them... haha, i can't wait til after lent is over ;)
- shopped w/ roxanne, but bought nothing, fam-lunch thing.

totally grateful for having older sisters, i got lucky... it's the three musketeers. everytime i watch movies w/ sisters i go, hey reminds me of us. or the kardashians lol. even though mari is very voiced, i still love her.




aw <3 "we're never gonna be alone, ever, ever".
got to appreciate what you have in front of you.

where the wild things are... by me (=

this substance abuse, beauty runs skin so deep.
the warmth of a sober slumber, the places we meet.
mentality so dreary, he reaches out in pain.
the coarse touch of lips, the beating of your pulse & veins.
his cry for help is never enough, songs he strums so delicately.
the loving is so rough.
take it in to watch the days go by.
take it in, so we can go to sleep at night.
we are just counting the hours.
love me softly, dreaming of flowers.
touch it, so soft, hits you so hard.
this affiction, can only break us apart.
temptation in the sun, cold as night.
the taste of blood, sweat, and tears.
God only knows your fears.
hold me tight, hold me close, nightmares of slumber we will go.
take me to another place, take me to the weapon, cock, pull, and load.
falling down the street, meet me down the road.
kiss my eyes, hold my breath, visions of lust in another direction.
love so fiercely, a time to pretend, shooting down the stars, high in affection.

OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG ! THE MEL SHOE.

Jeffrey Campbell, you touch me in a good way, I swear it.
Say hello to One Hundred & Fifty Bucks.
Thank you for using my name in a sexy positive feisty light.
I'm in love with the Mel shoe.

thinking, drinking, sinking, feeling.

watched Wanted today, finally w/ my sissy, pretty good.
" You know when you have a dream and you're half-awake, but still in the fringe of your brain, and when you open your eyes you're so damn glad it was a dream? "
Which ties into my dreams... I've been having dreams about "him" again, my subconscious is telling me something, & I've even tried to confront whatever I think it's been telling me, it didn't get me anywhere.

Life has been interesting lately, it's either new people or people I used to know... I like meeting new people, it spices up my life.

LG - Life's good (:

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...

Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours.

So I finally purchased that movie... (: It happened when I least expected it. Roxanne went on a movie spending crazy, her bartender, gave her a giftcard. Enter the Dragon w/ Bruce Lee, Emelie, Wanted, a some mafia gangsta movies she usually likes. Which reminds me... I watched Good Fella's the other day, loved it. [=


I love movies, art, film, music way too much. I still need to develop some film, but I only took two pics. I've been saving $$$'s. Moving soon + Tattoo's + movies. Things I love to love.

I realized with "him" we can't be amicable if I'm seen as a portion for foxes, & the other "him"... I'm just as into him as the next femme fatale. I wrote him a comment. LOL. heyyyy I can be nice with "him".

I'm going to brush negativity & ignorance aside, & if it feels like I'm not listening to you, honey I ain't. Because I got 99 problems, but a bitch ain't one :] I'm the only bitch, bitch! I can handle, at my worst & best. My life ain't a bitch though, no worries, ' cause I have three little birds. Blah must get my v-cut back from last year :[[ & be dark & tan like that too.. right now.. it looks like.
looked like...

a rebel without a cause.

I watched this when I got home, & I loved it :] I love oldies.
Today I bought Adventures in Babysiting & Flight of the Conchords season 1 :]
& I also got my fedora.

A Rebel Without a Cause <333
Jim : Hi
Judy: Hi.
Judy: Is this what it's like to love somebody?
Jim: I don't know.
Judy: What kind of person do you think a girl want?
Jim: A man..
Judy: Well yes...
Judy: but a man who could be gentle & sweet.. like you are.
Jim: *laughs*
Judy:& someone who doesn't run away when you want them
...like being Plato's friend when nobody else liked him.
That's being strong.
Jim: Wow
Jim: We're not going to be lonely anymore.
Ever, ever. Not you or me.
Judy: I love somebody. All the time I've been looking for someone to love me.
& now I love somebody, & it's so easy. Why is it easy now?
Jim: I don't know. It's easy for me too.
Judy: I love you Jim, I really mean it.
Jim: Well I'm glad.




I'm getting tired of the same old lines, Like aye baby this, Sup' ma. blah blah blah.
That wont get you anywhere home-boy. I've been there, done that. Seen it all... I'm so good, you can spit your game, & I'll be blindfolded, & I can spot it dead on.
I'm content with my life, & I don't need yours. I'm not a sappy ass chick. What gets me, is when guys fuck me over, or whatever they do... & try to come back tenfold, like second time is a charm. Is there anyone out there... that can prove to me chivalry ain't dead?

I want a Rebel Without A Cause... but with his shit together, thank-you very much.

God loves ugly...

“ Look at the ugliness. Yet one has a feeling within one that blinds a man while he loves you. You, with that feeling, blind him, and blind yourself. Then, one day, for no reason, he sees you as ugly as you really are and he is not blind anymore and then you see yourself as ugly as he sees you and you lose your man and your feeling… After a while, when you are as ugly as I am, as ugly as women can be, then, as I say after a while the feeling, the idiotic feeling that you are beautiful, grows slowly in one again. It grows like a cabbage. And then, when the feeling is grown, another man sees you and thinks you are beautiful and it is all to do over. "

don't rock my boat.

- told my father i'm moving out finally

- got to do what i got to do.

- thumbs up for accomplishing some dreams.

- & for future reference, i will get mine.

my body is sore, been working out, haha back to the summer bod, bring it.
i shine the best at summer, anyway. it's my season out of all seasons. i like how i'm darkest at that time.

point & case.



p.s. i get to bust out the colgates :)

p.p.s. hellz bellz + stussy = love. i can't wait. <3

no looking back, spaceships don't come equipped, with rearview mirrors.

i now love this song, because it ain't playing on mtv twenty fo'.

so miracles happen if you believe ((: laws of attraction, what'd i tell ya?

lent...
gave up xxx, alcohol, & sweets such as pie, cookies, cakes, candy. three temptations. which reminds me, who remembers temptation island? anyway, mel what so ever, don't give into temptation. it's basically a test & sacrifice.

my sister's new tattoo is sick ! i can't wait till the tattoo guy comes back from cuba, but that also reminds me.

keep $$$ right, job untight. lol.

good riddance. i miss you boo boo face fucker.