Sunday, April 19, 2009

back in the day when i was kid, i'm not a kid anymore, sometimes...

i wish i was a kid again.

so yesterday was fun & random, loved every minute of it. thank GOD ! i'm alive.
woke up early to meet up with Carlos so he could do my tattoo (:

my tattoo
that's the only upclose picture i have for now.
4 hours of pain & sometimes tickling (;
afterward byn-bby hit me up... we decided to kick it finally after many many months.
she picked me up when i went home. ate some cereal, still hungry... jolliebees, haven't been there in a minute either. two-piece chicken w/ rice & a bottled water.
met up w/ her cali boys at circus circus, awww i felt like a big family (:
fun times in the car (; then went to the northside to a kickback... more cali guys.
it was weird, a vegas house, & all cali dudes. i had a nice time, now i want to go to cali :]
everythings been chill, i've been down for whatever... got my mind right, money tight. lol
i can't wait for christal's babyshower, & when sheena gets her car, &... summer. bring it, baby.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

coachella !!!!!!!!!!!.

I can not attend this year, I know for sure. Next year I will find someone down with me to camp for 3 days, & pay $200-300 something, DAMNIT *$&$^*(@&(*&@&#@*(40^.


Coachella 2009 Pictures, Images and Photos

Made a date with Divinity, but she wouldn't let me fuck.

Hola ! Aloha ! :]

Went to my 2nd interview, & I think I did snazzy. Almost got stuck in the parking lot, bought some white nail polish. Finally purchased this movie...

2 days in paris Pictures, Images and Photos

" It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses. "

So I would like to hit the gym this week. I should...
I'm exhausted, & I think the blast from the past was trying to hit. Nostalgia, then came over me. I'm just dandy although. Many new faces then hit...
I've been saying hit a lot lol (;
& the funny thing is, you always want this one person to hit you up, but they don't. Other people in their place do but you move on. & one day, just a normal day, their ugly face reappears.

"love without second guesses only second chances"
"to be trusted is a far greater compliment than to be loved."


No wonder why people run to me like I'm Dr. Phil, I've always grew up in unhealthy relationships. (; Everyone today in my house was like.. yadaa yadaaa.. POINT BLANK!
It's easy as A-B-C, but you make it more complicated than usual.
& that's not real.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

i'm so hard for a rich girl, my heels are high, & i don't know how to love...

this weekend was unbelievable productive, & managed to stay busy.
that's what's up :]
purchased items, i've been wanting to score! :] i think i'm finally getting empire records.
- cute voodoo string dolls, american apparel items, m.a.c. eyeshadow case.
- two lame kickbacks, with lame perverted males. some youngin's. i'm sorry i'm going to be 21 next year, i don't think so. smoked hookah, because i couldn't drink, needed to get lightheaded.
- made cutesy hair bows, hot topic or other stores would charge like 2-8 bucks for. LAME ! Going to make more & more. <33 All shapes & sizes.
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Easter was off the hook (; Marianne's in laws, had a talk w/ mikey in the car (:
Food & cute deserts.

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- Saturday, Anthony randomnly hit me up, asked me to watch I Love You, Man w/ him at SunCoast, I was like Thank-God ! I don't have to drive... I was deadbeat on Friday w/ the girls.
Hilarious, the dude from Hot Rod was in it, Paul Rudd, & the guy from Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

Last but not least, I think I have a job now :]]]]] $$$$$$$$$$$.
& also, Jesus has risen, & lent is over. Who would like to drink?! ;]

Friday, April 10, 2009

so I've been sleeping with this silence in my mind...

All I've been doing is working out, staying in, watching movies, & job-hunting.
I miss blogging on a daily, I used to blog on my myspace.
Hopefully ! I get the front desk position at the hospital, because... I prefer not to work in retail, but a jobs' a job. I'm obsessed with cellphone string charms. I currently want the voodoo string dolls. (:
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Thursday, April 9, 2009

hong kong garden :]

what tickles my heart at the moment :
weird music, that I can rock out to.
indie music, that I can end my day.
the ending of the french - english subtitled movie Amelie '

amelie
" So, my little Amélie, you don't have bones of glass. You can take life's knocks. If you let this chance pass, eventually, your heart will become as dry and brittle as my skeleton. So, go get him, for Pete's sake! "

amelie
- buzznet & their bloggers.
- accessories galore.
- assholes & their one-liners, just for kicks, it makes me laugh.
- milk & cereal, but that addiction won't ever get kicked.


so i've gotten good deals on my american apparel items, & bought some new m.a.c. makeup.
go me! other than that. my life has been chill... doing what i have to do.
& to end this blog.
" everyday your name slowly fades away from my heart. "
damn i'm listening to much emo-indie lately. cool- cool. xoxo.

Monday, April 6, 2009

i am aiming to be somebody that somebody trusts...

Dear online diary,
My nightmares, had a hidden message, change was coming, & so was a challenge. They say it's a hard knock life for us, but you could have whatever you like. What's your dreams, your ambitious? Can you aim high enough? Oh, don't give up. " Can't knock the hustle! "

Today I fought, like Gandhi, I didn't need to raise a voice, or talk down. Instead I fought with humor. I'm letting go...


You have to live your life, right?

Sunday, April 5, 2009

if you give them the chance, don't sell your heart...

weekend whirlwind, lots of tears, fears, which leads to motivation, dream chasing & making.
-daddy's birthday, sushi, ran into ex-new gf ( she dogged me hah )-his whole fam, bowling ran into druggies / drunkies, fights, we can laugh as we look back type of shit.
- barnes & noble, sister, tears, older sister, old friends, shoe whoring ( gladiator wedges- two pairs ) sexy-sexy.
- northtown, chilling, focused.

guys are funny, " why you so mean to me? "

you're not the only one I'm mean to, don't feel special.

"Provide, Profess, Protect" - Act like a lady, Think like a man. Good book, comedian Steve Harvey wrote, point-blank.

I can do this, please do not feed me negativity, like it's so hard bullshit, I know. But anything is possible. From slums to riches. P.S. I watched Slumdog Millionaire ); Good movie.

the shoes I've been wanting, finally got em', plus these other cute shoes =]


gladiators

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

i see the paths your eyes wander down, i wanna come to...

“…nobody gets everything they want unless they lose something they love, like their integrity. ” - Gossip Girl.

I'm not going to write a subliminal message through any poems I write. I will be straight up & tell you as a grown woman, that I miss you.

Take it as is.